
The day in the life of a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend living with Multiple Sclerosis.
Welcome to my world!
Here is where I will talk/vent about my MS and any and all things that make me go hmmmm or just piss me off.
My way of getting it out, to be able to let it go and move on. It is also a place to share the good things that go on in my life. Somehow, no matter how bad it gets, and it can get very bad
, I always manage to 'Make it through the rain'!
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10/26/08-11/01/08
Thanks for the tag - and I know, eh?
Stay tuned, because there's more coming....
Hugs Tracy!!! xxx
Just dropping in to see how you're feeling and how things are going.
Hope you have a great day and a great week, my friend.
So great to see you!
Thanks for coming by earlier; I was wondering how you were doing!
Are you doing okay?!
*hugs*
I have looked into my crystal ball and it says Tracy MUST have a good weekend and fart in the face of fate!
Hope all is well in your world!! Take care!
Thanks for the tag! I was really happy to finally meet you at BlogStar, too!
As for SAG, well, I suppose it's not called "S.A.G." for nothing, right?
LMAO!
How'd ya get a graphic up there anyhow Mz Tech Ed! What would I do without your pc help anyhow?! lmbo!
>See! ha ha ha!
I was going to start a journal but kinda feared I may get fitted for a pecial jacket....... Ya know what I mean?
's girls!
I'm telling you, it is uplifting!! lolamers luv back at ya!!

I have been adding some new things at my Etsy shoppe today. MzTracyr: Creations made with care I revamped some old items and made some new banners. There is a sale on selected items, and a great contest until December 14th. I just received some beautiful antique brass and copper findings and some new beads. There will many more new items going up next week.
The lanyard charms are my favorite right now. They can be used for so many things: cell phone charms, zipper pulls, key chain charms, loop them through a belt loop. They are great accessories!
If anyone has a specific 'Awareness' 

color, please let me know. More awareness items coming soon.
Hope to see you there!
xoxo
My friend Holly is into the paranormal, something of which I am fascinated by. She has an awesome site Paranormal Pathways . If you want some chills, you must stop in! She also has a gr8 place at BlogStar too.
And dont forget to go by her other sites, The Holly Tree and Community Blog . Stop in and leave her a tag! Go and have some good reads!! 
Today, I think I am going rest some. Been making some new things at my jewelry site. I have some awareness items up now and if there is any special color you would like, just let me know and I will get something made for you. My hands are tired, lol. Lots of lil parts and twisting, and man my ole eyes!! 
On Tuesday, I went to see my alanon sponsers hubz at the care center. We lost mama Jean May 30, 2008...she was my sponser. Her death was quite hard on me. She was like a mom to me. She battled cancer for years and it finally took her. Now papa Les is finishing his fight with cancer. I think when he lost Jean, the fight went out of him. They had a long love and life together. I hope that he can go home soon to be with Jean. He is no longer the the man he was. He, like Jean, would hate to be like this. They were the kind of people that true love stories should be made about. They stuggled through War, the Depression, and so much more. They have wonderful children and did the very best they could. They stuck together through Hell and happiness. When most would have walked away, their love kept them together.
For one brief moment I saw the light in his eye again. He knew who I was and squeezed my hand tight. The he went into his own world. I held back the tears until we left.
I am not a 'religious' person per se, but...Dear God, remove him from his pain and take him home to his one true love Jean so they can walk eternity together!
I love you mama Jean and papa Les! God speed!
Blessings to all and now I am going to rest as the last few days have me spent!!
Love and Light!
I think my attitude and my life have changed dramtically in the last 11 years. The MonSter took so much away from me. I was never idle, and people took notice when I entered a room. This is not meant to sound conceited. At 6‘, 148lb(normally), long aubrun hair, and my powerwalk, lol people noticed. Oh and do not forget the the perky 36D boobs! lol
So flash forward to now…
I go out and people walk right in front of me, they literally stand in front of me as I am doing something…like I am invisible. The first time I noticed this was at sea world with my friend who is also 6’ tall. I was i an electric scooter and got up to a window of fish. A family walked right in front of me and stopped. I could not see. They looked right at me. It was then I felt the need to quietly apologise to anyone in a wheelchair i may have done this to. Then i thought, i was raised better and never would have done that. Well my comment to the family was “rude much, great way to teach your kids respect for others“! The mom looked like she was gonna slap or something. Then saw my look and my friend. Go for it, i was thinking!! lol They threw their tails between their legs and left. It happened all day!!!
In stores, the impatient people give me crap as sometimes it takes a bit to get my things up on the counter. They hem they haw….I go slower! Sorry, do not piss me off. My friend who usually takes me places is not one to mess with. She has seen the igorance of people being with me. One time, someone actually pushed me out of the way…my right leg can move, ...he ended up on the floor.
Handicapped parking….if you do not need it, do not use it!! Do not borrow someones placard, do not take someone disabled to the store and use the placard while leaving them in the car!!! I will say something!! You want my spot, go out and break your back and you can have it. You want my spot, take my friggen disease too!!
Bitter, hell yes, thanks to rude igorant people.
I have 4 year degree in business. ‘BSBA’ Now, when I meet people and they talk to me, they either talk real loud or slow like I am stupid. Please do not ASSume that disabled people are stupid!
I think sometimes on the net people ASSume too much also. No one knows what another goes through daily.
I rarely get out of my house. From my fav movie, ‘Last Holiday“, “I want to be cremated, I’ve lived my whole life in a box, I don’t want to be buried in one.”
I have always been emotional, but now I cry daily, sometimes for hours i sit with tears in the corners of my eyes.
Some more random thoughts:
I’m scared
I’m lonely
I’m terrified of becoming a vegetable
I will not become a vegetable…either way
I am afraid to leave my house now
It takes all i have to go out with my hubz for shopping on the weekend
I am in constant pain
I take way too many pain meds some days
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t care
Please, in your daily lives, remember to never treat people with any kind of disabilty badly. We may have lost some abilities, but we still deserve respect and kindness.
Thoughts to ponder…
I’ve been tagged by Jacq at Should I blog That!
On to the rules..
Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their name as well as links to their blog.
Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog or email them.
1. I'm 6' tall
2. I have freckles
3. I can flip my eyelids
4. I love pspXII and photoshop
5. I make jewelry
6. I am very limber
7. I can answer the phone before it rings
I’m tagging:
No matter how you feel about the election, now is the time!!
What I feel is so hard to put into words. It was as if a weight was removed from atop my shoulders. We all have been a part of history. These are the stories we will be telling our grand-kids.
My hope is that the stories will be beautiful ones. My hope is that the ones against this, will drop their emotions and pull together so we can rebuild our Country. This is a new era in American History, and one, we should be proud of.
It is time to throw away hatred, prejudice, and bigotry of ANY kind. Why do we need to make the color of ones skin or their sexual preference a point of hate. There is prejudice in every race and preference. Throw it away...come together. Embrace our differences and we can learn and grow as we never have.
I know this may sound naive and I know that nothing will change over night, but if we work togther we can show the world just how mighty the United States of America is.
UNITED - together, as one
Are we really United? Isn't that what our forefathers foresaw for this Country? We are the ones that separate each other. We are also the ones that can bring us back together. The time is now!
Do you understand...we just voted the very first African-American man to be the President of the *United* States of America! Do you understand what this means? This is a huge thing for our Country!
I am so very proud of this great land. It has been a long time since I could say this. So many people stood up and said YES! So many new voters turned out to make their stand. Already he has brought our country together! Can you see this?
No matter what you think of Obama, he IS our new President. So, come together. Work together. The time to end prejudice is now! Together, we can!
Obama is not the coming of the end!!! I am so very tired of seeing that written. These are the comments that make hatred. These are the comments that separate us. These are the comments that bring about fear! STOP! Come together!
Let's embrace our differences and learn from each other.
Again, I am soooooo not naive. I am actually quite intelligent 'pats self on back' So let's throw ignorance away and , say it with me, COME TOGETHER!!
Ok, do you get it now? Did I make myself clear? What...say it again...
COME TOGETHER!!!
Remember: UNITED we stand, divided we fall!!
As a friend's dd texted so beautifully...
“Happy New President Day!”
So, my dd is home from school with a bad cough etc. I am not allowed to shower alone, per hubby, in case I fall or something. Well, I cannot stand not having a shower, but it is for the best I wait for someone to be home.
So, anywho...I asked my dd if she would be ok in helping me with my shower. I told her, "Ya know if I fall or something call 911, make sure to cover me up so the hottie paramedics do not have to see my wobbly bits in all their glory!" Calmy, quickly and on the mark she says, "Hmm mom, are you sure you want me to cover you up?" I am shocked and appalled...
lol
She said it with no humor, matter of fact. She is 12…out of the mouths of our kids eh.
Had to share as my face was like WHAT!! lol

I hope everyone had a 'spooky' Halloween! Dad took the kids out for trick-or-treating and I stayed home to pass out candy to all the kids coming by. We had a lot of kids this year. We get a lot of 'drive-ins' in my area. Guess they know where the good candy is!! 
Here is a pic of me after the passing out of the candy. I got a velvet witches hat and added the black rose and the veil to it. The veil was my nana's and it is 80 years old. I thought it made the hat look awesome.


The Werewolf's Bride
retold by
S. E. Schlosser
There once was a beautiful girl engaged to a soldier who caught the eye of an evil woodsman who had sold his soul for the ability to turn himself into a wolf at will. He lay in wait for the girl when she was walking home one day and accosted her, begging her to elope with him. The maiden refused, spurning his love and crying out to her love to save her from his advances.
The girl's cries were heard by her eager fiancé, who had come searching for her when she was late returning to her parent's home. The soldier drove the woodsman away, threatening him with dire consequences if he ever approached the maiden again.
The furious woodsman lay low for a few days, waiting for his chance. It came on the girl's wedding day. She was dancing happily at her wedding reception with a group of her friends when the woodsman, in the form of a wolf, leapt upon her and dragged her away with him.
The enraged bridegroom gave chase, but the wolf and his bride had disappeared into the thick forest and were not seen again. For many days, the distraught soldier and his friends, armed with silver bullets, scoured the woods, searching for the maiden and her captor. Once the soldier thought he saw the wolf and shot at it. Upon reaching the location, he found a piece of a wolf's tail lying upon the ground. But of the wolf to which it belonged there was no sign.
After months of searching, his friends begged him to let the girl go and get on with living. But the soldier was half-mad with grief and refused to give up. And that very day, he found the cave where the werewolf lived. Within it lay the preserved body of his beloved wife. The girl had refused the werewolf's advances to the very end, and had died for it. After his murderous fury had died away, the werewolf had tenderly laid the body of the girl he had loved and had killed into a wooden coffin, where it would be safe from predators, and he came to visit her grave every day. Lying in wait for him, the soldier shot the werewolf several times as he entered the cavern, chasing him down until the maddened and dying werewolf leapt into the lake and disappeared from view. The soldier sat by the lake with his gun, staring into the rippling waters for hours as the catfish ate the bloody bits of the wolf that were floating on the surface of the water.
When his friends found him, the soldier's mind was gone. He babbled insanely about a werewolf that had been eaten by a catfish when it leapt into the water, and he sobered only long enough to lead the men to the body of his beloved before he collapsed forevermore into insanity. He died a few days later, and was buried beside his bride in a little glen where they had planned to build there house. Their grave is long forgotten, and the place where it stands is covered with daisies in the spring. But to this day, the people of the area have a prejudice against eating catfish, though no one remember why.
Love this story
The Hook
retold by
S. E. Schlosser
The reports had been on the radio all day, though she hadn't paid much attention to them. Some crazy man had escaped from the state asylum. They were calling him the Hook Man since he had lost his right arm and had it replaced with a hook. He was a killer, and everyone in the region was warned to keep watch and report anything suspicious. But this didn't interest her. She was more worried about what to wear on her date.
After several consultation calls with friends, she chose a blue outfit in the very latest style and was ready and waiting on the porch when her boyfriend came to pick her up in his car. They went to a drive-in movie with another couple, then dropped them off and went parking in the local lover's lane. The blue outfit was a hit, and she cuddled close to her boyfriend as they kissed to the sound of romantic music on the radio.
Then the announcer came on and repeated the warning she had heard that afternoon. An insane killer with a hook in place of his right hand was loose in the area. Suddenly, the dark, moonless night didn't seem so romantic to her. The lover's lane was secluded and off the beaten track. A perfect spot for a deranged mad-man to lurk, she thought, pushing her amorous boyfriend away.
"Maybe we should get out of here," she said. "That Hook Man sounds dangerous."
"Awe, c'mon babe, it's nothing," her boyfriend said, trying to get in another kiss. She pushed him away again.
"No, really. We're all alone out here. I'm scared," she said.
They argued for a moment. Then the car shook a bit, as if something…or someone…had touched it. She gave a shriek and said: "Get us out of here now!"
"Jeeze," her boyfriend said in disgust, but he turned the key and went roaring out of the lover's lane with a screeching of his tires.
They drove home in stony silence, and when they pulled into her driveway, he refused to help her out of the car. He was being so unreasonable, she fumed to herself. She opened the door indignantly and stepped into her driveway with her chin up and her lips set. Whirling around, she slammed the door as hard as she could. And then she screamed.
Her boyfriend leapt out of the car and caught her in his arms. "What is it? What's wrong?" he shouted. Then he saw it. A bloody hook hung from the handle of the passenger-side door.

You can bitch, you can moan, listen to the bs going around, follow the sheep, and even lie...but no matter what we (USA) are going to have a new President very soon. Thank God!!!
One of the candidates voted with Bush 90% of the time.
hmmmmm kind of worries me. Our Country is the crapper...WAKE up peoples.
Obama is being slammed about his birth certificate!!! Please, if he is not born and bred here, do you really think he woud have made it this far?? All of this came about right when his numbers went up in the poles. Coincidence...I think NOT! His father was born in Kenya, his father has the same first and last name. hmmmm If he was white, do you think this issue would even be coming up?? NOT!! If he had a pregnant, unwed daughter...it would still be front page news. If he had a clothing allowance of 150,000
If he used taxpayers money to fly his family to NY... the shit would be hitting the fan!
As for the 'terrorist' ties. OMG, if this was a little bit true he would be in guantanimo (sp) bay being tortured!! His step-father was Muslim, this does not make him Muslim! The bottom line here is not all Muslims are bad people!! That is like saying because of skin heads, all white people are bad!!! PUUHLEEZE!!
As for raising taxes...yup he will if you make more than a 1/4 million a year. And that's a bad thing?? I guess if you make that and more. Most people/families do not!!
My fav giggle is when some bring up his middle name...OMG!! lol Ya, when his mom gave birth to him, in HAWAII, she knew that one day that name would the same name of a terrosrist!!
Oh and btw, his mom was a white Christian woman!!
The boy's name Hussein hu(s)-sein is pronounced hoo-SAYN. It is of Arabic origin, and its meaning is "good; small handsome one".
Now, for my questions:
When is McCain going to turn in his medical records? Is his cancer in remission? Is his prognosis good? Why did he ask a woman whose husband succeeded from the USA to be his VP? And they are calling people un-american!! Hypocrisy at its finest! How can he justify allowing a 150,000 wardrobe for said woman when our country is dying!! That is more than most people make in a year!!
WTF!!! Can he control is temper or is he going to fly off the handle in a crisis?? Watch the debates!! Is Palin ever going to answer a question w/o a question? Here is a woman that makes rape victims purchase their rape kits!! WTF!!! She would like to overturn roe v. wade?? And they already dis-agree on a few topics! Scary... If something happens to McCain, Palin um President...scarier!!
How many homes does he have. Oh, right, his wifes money.
He will not raise taxes...they will stay the same...that's gr8 for the 'rich'. Not so much for the 'rich-impaired'!!
The big arguement is, "Well, McCain is a war hero!" And... There are many war heros in the USA. If this is the criteria of some, then how the hell did Bush get into office??!! 
For those that dis-agree here, it's all good. I just felt it was time to finally ask questions on the other side...only fair!! You can dis-agree, I won't care as my vote is already in, and hoping this election is fair... Unlike the past two 'stolen' elections!
I'm thinking it is time for my meds!!! 