Well here it is!! The iBot4000 Mobility System!!

I’m really excited about getting it, but my self doubt is kicking in. Is it worth the money? Is it worth spending part of my inheritance? My families inheritance?  

Before I got MS and gained 30 pounds….I never doubted anything I did. Now…I feel doubt, guilt, you name it. Do I deserve this? Why do I?  

It has been a looong day for me. We left at 8am and got home at 4pm. I know I am just tired and in an MS place. (my name for when i get moody, lol)  

When I look at the pics I do not see me at all. Does that make sense? I see a disabled, pudgy lady. That is not me, yet it is me. But it’s not fair and it should not be me!! Probably why I never take pics of my lower half. The only full pics of me around are of when I was well, walking, and skinny. ARRRGGGHHHH!!

I so wanted this to be a happy blog, but look at me all whiney here.  

OK OK….it is really cool and I know once I get used to it it’s gonna be all good. I just needed to whine a minute.  

Oh, and my insurance company said they will not pay even a potion of this. This chair is a ‘luxury’ they say. I am roflmao at that one. They really have no idea what they did by denying me. I am not one to ever give up. I may be down for the starting of the count, but I always get back up…and honestly, I always end up winning. Nothing ever comes easy for me, so I will fight the good fight, keep my head held high, and kick some insurance ass!!!! 

Anywho, there is the update. Thanks for reading, if you did, and talk at ya all soon!!
Love and Light!!